Found the lyrics.... I was a lil mistaken about that line I couldnt hear very well... anyway... enjoy!
Why don't you do somethin'?? :: 7:52 PM
Today was not a good day.
I was kinda... down the whole day, I hd some highlights... like when my hair was back on its "amazing" state, and I had some laughs when I talked with Tin R. I also talked with Madó and Federico... what a name (not the person, the name!!) thats been bugging me for a while now.
I know people tend to think im a bad person... I had never actually done anything but I seem to give that impression... Anyhow... I had naver done any major bad thing, some nasty pranks but nothing that you would say "oh thats evil!" And I dont think what I did was "evil"... It was a mistake, a huge one, and I regret it, I should appologize... I never did, but If I were him, I really wouldnt care!.
Im not gonna go into explanations, no one needs to know and the rest already know. Well, now im in this situation that I think that Im creating out of nowhere... but Im bored and I need sth to put my attention on. The thing is that tonight, I feel bad. Its true that it was a boring day and that THAT might not be very helpfull, but Im feeling bad, depressed, sad and played.
I feel like not very far from my house some people are having a blast on my expense, and well, I might deserve it... but I will complain anyway.
And me being a person that doesnt like sitting around and let people get away with what they are up to (and lets hope im just being paranoic and feeling guilty, and all this sum leads to me feeling this way and always thinking the worst of people!!! that actually has done nothing bad against me)Tomorrow I'll call and simply demand the truth, no matter how harsh it might be.
And me, the stupid, still look at the phone like if I stare long enough it will ring!. How pathetic can someone be?... oh, you'll never know until you ask me...
I wanna curse, I wanna scream, I wanna let out all this compressed feelings inside of me. Plus people just dont know when to shut up, today I was asked about him... 4 times! How can I erase him from my head if people keep asking me about someone who doent even remember I exist!Someone who only likes me for periods no longer than 3 hours!... GOSH!, no no, today is not a good day!!
And the other... I think that he is actually treating me bad on purpose, and Im so stupid that I allow it! You want pathetic, here I deliver!
Im still looking at the STUPID FUCKING PHONE!!!!
I hate guys!!!. Im not good at their games, or im too emotional, or I dont understand them or I have the wrong idea of what a relationship should be like... I dunno... I guess if it always fails, then the problem is on me... not on the others. I dunno... I... just wanna stop feeling empty and angry and lonely. I just wanna go back to my "miss-independant" self. No worries about love, or guys, or sadness, or depresion. Just a constant laugh... Gosh I miss that!
Nope, not a good day... I think I must put an end to it immediately!. Im gonna go and try to sleep it. Maybe tomorrow will bring sth good.
Gosh Im so ashamed... I called..., what a laugh they must have had... or maybe they are still laughing... So pathetic...
Bye...
Why don't you do somethin'?? :: 7:19 PM
That song... I love it... Im doubting the "shame" line cause I cant hear very well what Ashlee says there, but im quite sure thats the idea... I'll seek the lyric later, now I'll thank this computer for working "properly".
I was doing abs yesterday and I stopped to pay attention to that lyric... cause I loved the music, and I could do this lil "reef" on the piano...so i'd play the song and then play the piano along ( just like 10 notes, thats all i could figure out, lame I know, but I get happy with sooooo lil!!!!)
And I kinda felt conected with that song, cause so many times Ive felt that way, and so many times Ive asked the same question with no answer... Thats what i love the most about Ashlee's cds... the songs are always so easy to relate to!!!.
I'll post the whole lyric later cause it is amazing, we all feel like that from time to time...
I have sth funny to tell... I was reading the colateral effects of the pills im talking for my skin (nothing major, but I'd like a soft spot free skin!!!) And it said: amount of livido raise (even more!!??... Im gonna be like a horny thing running around!!!... but there is always a counter part), depresion for no reason, and then things like headaches and dizzynes... nothing ive experienced so far... at least not out of the ordinary. But I found very amusig the fact that I can turn from this horny b!itch to a depressed cow in a second!!! (im no cow but i can be a b!itch!)
What else have I been doing?... Ive talked a lot with Federico, a lot... almost daily but not a lot, by sms always so we cant say much... He just keeps waking me up!, I wanna sleep up until 10 and at 9:30 there he is "Bip bip, bip bip" sms from him "get up and study" He says!!!. How dare he!!!
Today I also talked with Matias..., why do I enjoy talking with him?... I dunno... I guess my masochistic (or is it masoquistic??) side comes up!!! Not one nice thing, is one after another, after another... yet I call... We have read this already right?... Guy treats me "bad" (is not like he is actually hurtfully insulting me, he just teases in a kinda harsh way), I call, he treats me the same..., says he'll call, doesnt call... and I call again!
HEY!!!! Im bored!!!! I have to do sth besides sunburn and study!!!
Well, i also talked with Ana and Tin (R) and... my grand ma came by??
No... nothing else to say!. Bored bored bored! Tomorrow shall bring sth exiting... we'll see... I hope at least it brings sth!!!. Oh!!! Today this show finished... actually it had finished a long time ago but in southamerica we always get the shows like two years later if ther are not the "IT" show.
But NAIMA WON!!! in america's next top model. That girl shined with attitude and personality! and she took amazing pics!. I so wanted her to win... and she did!!!!!
GREAT!!!!! ok, now im sleepy! G2G
Bye bye!!!
PS: Lucas i love each time you drop by, hope your neck is better and im so happy for you and your gf, you so deserved it!!!. Loads of love and send her a kiss from me! Tell her she is really lucky to have a guy like you!!!
Why don't you do somethin'?? :: 5:57 PM
For the last week Ive been trying to remember this song I used to love. I saw the clip on Sony (the tv channel) like a year or more ago. And the clip was very "tim burton" like. The song was really sweet, and today talking with a friend (Fede) about tunes from commercials I remembered a word: Flowers.
But nothing else came... I started looking around and "buy flowers" sounded familiar. So I racked my brain for more and guess what!!! I remembered a whole verse... with that I was able to find the song after like 15 minutes on yahoo and google!!!. Looks like im one of the 5 ppl that know this song.
Is from a french singer: Émilie Simon and the title is "Flowers"
Here is the lyric, but now I cant find it to download... so if someone knows where I can find it... please... tell me!!!
it's such a shame you're a boy
but when you are not a girl
nobody buys you flowers
I want to buy you flowers
and now I'm standing in the shop
I must confess I wonder
if you will like my flowers
You are so sweet and I'm so alone
oh darling please
tell me you're the one
I'll buy you flowers
I'll buy you flowers
like no other girl did before
You were so sweet and I was in love
oh darling don't tell me
you found another girl
forget the flowers
because the flowers
never last for ever
never last for ever
never last for ever
my love"
Why don't you do somethin'?? :: 6:49 PM
Ok im back... bored as one human being can be!!
Studied a lil this morning... not much... hope tomorrow I'll woke up in a better mood and I'll be able to formally start.
A place you dont wanna be today... MY HEAD!!! My brain is officially going nutz!. Im making mistake after mistake... well, right now I dont know what to think... I dunno if they are mistakes of the best thing that I did, but being me a pesimistic being.... I tend to see everything as a mistake.
Look what a lovely horoscope I got : Yes, that is a very special spark you're feeling with (and toward) you-know-who. But this potential love interest may not be in a situation that's conducive to romance. You might be better off leaving this one alone for now.
GREAT!!!!!!!!. I should have said before all this that today is Friday 13th, I have no trouble with black cats and stairs... but the 13th isnt my day!...
I tried to talk to so many ppl today and no one answered... not good for my depressing mood. And then I tried to sleep and I was woken up by 300 rings at my door... and then when I was hungry I went to cook sth but we ran out of gas and I couldnt cook... and AHHHHHHHH! such a bad mood!!! Obviously I get angry really easy so I kinda took it out on everyone... so now, well... see why I talk about mistakes!!!
Anyhow... I kinda need to talk with someone... and I did with maru... but, I dunno, she had to go eat and I had to stop my speech. I could use a... better not put that in writing!.
Gonna go before someone else suicides from my depressing vibes!!!
Bye!
Per!
Why don't you do somethin'?? :: 4:50 PM