Well, I know Ive been a lil gone... with my other space and all... But here I am.
And this place keeps surprising me... First it was sammi and now Enes friend!. I love getting messages!!!. Im listening to a song from my lady that I dont fancy very much... "Over to you now" And right now I dont like it... maybe after listening to it like 100 times I will... tends to happen!
Ive been downloading the new songs from ashlee... but who am I kidding IM SO GONNA BUY THAT CD!!!! after she is my gal, she the one that transformed me... from my look (sorry gal had to steal your hair cut!!!) and then with "Autobiography" she sang about me!. I feel so identified with that song!!.
"L, O, L, O, L, O, L, O, V, E... Im talking about love!!!!!" So catchy!!!!
What else? nothing much has been going on, yesterday I saw this movie with Jodi Foster about she loosing her daughter in a plane and also I saw "Batman begins" The one I liked the most was Batman... the plane one wasnt that great plus I discovered what was going on at half movie...
I recevied the new dates for my exam and it is the 13th and 16th of February. I told everyone I could... Oh! forgot to call Juan and Santi!!!!!!. I talked with Vale... and maru.. I got angry at Guille... it was his fault he should have never said that, I hate being underestimated! But im ok now... I think, havent talked with him ever since... What else??? I dunno... Im not very inspired to write right now!.
Im gonna see if my rp start moving on cause im kinda boring... surprising right?????? Why is it that when you have 10000 things to do you cant wait to have 5 minutes and when you have they are never enough, but when you have 24 hours free you dont know what the heck to do with all that time??... Am I the only one that feels like that????
Could be, im kinda weird...
G2G get bored with sth else!!!!!!!
Oh... i found this things I wrote I dont exactly remember when but it was like 2 months ago! I was kinda sad, bad humor... I remember why, but I wont say though I think its pretty obvious!
"You cant play with me like that, I might look tough, but I have a fragile heart"
"The phone rang, my heart stopped...
and I watched the color leave my skin.
I closed my eyes, as seconds passed...
waiting for my name to echo aroud.
'Dad!!' shouted my brother, and to my disgrace,
my heart started beating again...
a stone fell inside my stomach and
I realized how inlove with you I am"
"The sound of your voice makes me forget"
No rimes at all.. just words I needed to write... it tends to happen!!!
After writing all that I listened to Hybrid Theory and Meteora... cds I listen to unleash my anger.
Now yes... Bye!!!
Per!
Why don't you do somethin'?? :: 5:16 AM
I made this the other day.. of course the eyes are mine!!!
Why don't you do somethin'?? :: 2:40 PM
So... Monday... It was a very slow and boring day.. actually it still is. I cooked and listened to a lot of music... I sang... but I wasnt happy with the outcome.
What else? Talked with Guille, Nico, Ana, Damian... and no one else...
I searched all around for a new game or a rpg to entertain me... but all I could find were boring or very much in the middle to jump in!!.
Anyway... Sami made my day with her nice words. Its lovely and healthy to hear nice things about one once in a while. Im gonna go now, im so bored I cant even think of something to write about! ( I can write about him... but no one wants to read about that!!!)
Bye!
Why don't you do somethin'?? :: 2:30 PM
So he aint gone yet... but Im missing him already!!!!
This past... almost 6 months Ive had my... lets quote Frank Sinatra... "I lived, I laughed and cried... I had my fill... my share or loosing... but now, as tears subside... I find it all, all so amusing!!!!"
And this past six month have been like that to me... I cried, I laughed much more... I loved... and in several moments... I felt like I was loved back... And it makes me so happy!!!. But Even though I had some "sad" moments... I always knew he was there... he was around... close... that I could walk a few blocks and bump into him... now... he is leaving and for the next 2 months I wont see him... And this huge thing is growing inside my chest... a feeling of... I cant put it into words... I just know Im gonna miss him sooooooo much!!!!! If I miss maru when I dont talk with her in two days in a row... imagine!
Ive been tossing around the idea of him leaving and well, its going to happen... and maybe I have to be "glad" that we aint anything more than friends... But who am I kidding!!! I wanna be much more than friends and I dont want him to leave!!!!. But I cant have all that I want.
I was thinking a few days ago about my past year... and I have to say it was amazing!. Many things I always wanted to do... I did. Many thing I wanted to happen, did happen... and the best of all... I fell inlove again!!!. And with someone real... someone close, someone really worth loving... I dont feel like I wasted my time, nor my feelings... I still feel like I have so much to give him... and Im 100% sure my feelings wont die over summer... they will grow, if posible!. Im afraid it wont be the same for him..., but Im happy I did what I did this year, and Im more than happy with the outcome. I just... very strongly wish that this will carry on next year. I doubt he will be still interested if he ever was "really" (and by that I mean seriously) interested.
I can only say it again and again and again....
I think that shows my feelings in a very explicit way... no reason to doubt!. Hahaha!!!!!.
Anyway... Im gonna go sleep... finally! until like... 10 AM!!!! Im soooooo crazy!. Tomorrow I might even dedicate the morning to me!!! Start Gym again, watch my diet (just have a chocolat bar that was sooooooooo goooooooood!!!!!!), paint my nails... sing!!!!!! I wanna sing!!! out loud!!! with the highest volume until my voice cords break!!!!!!!!!
Im still gonna study in the afternoon... but I think im gonna be much more at ease...plus tomorrow night... IM GOING OUT!!!!!!!!! Wish I get to see him.
Right now Im too sleepy and I wanna listen to my tape so im gonna say b-bye for now...
Oh! I forgot... Im writing a new song... and I love my chorus!!!! The title "Love song" Imagine!!!!!!!
By-bye!!!
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