Well, today was a weird day, nice weird day!. First of all I must confess I never even touched a book!!!!. Im changing from tomorrow... back on the diet, and the excercise and of course... studing!!!! I wanna study all "girls" tomorrow!.
But lets get back to today... the important thing that happened is HIM. Yeah... again... And gosh did I not look good today... I was like "I hope he says no cause I look like sh*t" And he had to go and say yes!... TODAY!... I tried my best to fix my face... but lately she is totaly against me!! I need to hide for a month!. Summer is comming... dont worry!!!
Well, we talked a lot... and during all the talking I was like... Im not gonna wait any more... and well, the rest you know it! 4 hours... today I go to sleep with a smile on my face!!!. Lets hope this lasts!
My nails look great... I spent the whole afternoon with them... they look amazing now tomorrow I'll paint them!.
Maru came, we hanged a bit and went to reant a movie... as you can see I had no expectations of plans for tonight, he had said he would call, but I thought he woundt so I had maru and a movie... my night was whole! It ended better except... well, he walked me home as always and we were two steps from my house when I see my dad watering the front garden... we were holind hands and in a second we were like three steps apart. We said goodbye (kiss in the cheek) and that was it. GOSH!!! right now I hate my dad!!!! I dont hate him, I hate that he was there... in that very moment, I was eager for a good old goodbye kiss but NO!!! my dad had to be there!!!!
OH! I almost forgot!!!. We were around the corner... minding our business when all of the sudden a car passes and we hear "Here lives a friend of mine" and another voice shouts "laura" and then the first one shouts "ABY!!!!" We both were like what??... And I think I know who they were... cause the first voice was clear... it was Lorena Boyadji... and Im guessing the other was Victoria Clerici. Stupid stupid girls!!! Not that we cared too much...
Today I also talked with Nico... its so funny... our talks always surround the same topics... its hilarous!!!, at least I have a great time each time we talk!!!. I also talked with Guille, we had a nice chat... he still owes me that song!!!! You said you were going to read this... so you still owe me that song... I dont forget!!!.
So, today was a lovely lovely day... warm and windy night, special to go near the shore to have a lovely chat with that one you really really care about. He looked really good tonight, or maybe its me and I cant seem to see him less than perfect. Well, I will stop here cause I can write pages and pages of... fluff about him!! Its a problem... I cant help it.
I had a great week, if tomorrow goes ok... I had a great week!!!!
Bye bye!
Per!
Why don't you do somethin'?? :: 3:45 AM There are not enough words to describe how extremly amazing, and exiting and expectacular this film was. I cant complain... I can ask for more, but I cant complain!!! Voldy was amazing, I was surprised they got him that well, it was exactly what I had in mind... and the tasks... WOW! everything was great!!!. Ced... my gosh... such a pitty! I can talk about 1000 things... but I can make a sumary by saying AMAZING! Well also last night guess who I ran into... DAMIAN!!! my friend from PoA!!! I knew I would see him... it was gr8 I finally gave him my email and he promised to write!!! And also last night I met this guy... GUILLE, I had never met someone so much like me!. He was hilarous, and charming, and we just had a blast!!!. It was really funny when he said "Co có" Just like me!!! Maru was like "he is your soul-mate!!!". And when we both entered to the cinema he sat next to me and we were keeping some sits empty for friends and at the same time we both reached for eachothers hand to finally introduce ourselves... it was weird... we made the same jokes and laughes at the same time... he even joked about the fact that he had just met me and had already met my mother!! and I had met his sister so!!!. I ended giving him my e-mail... I had to... he is me!!! Plus... its not like HE would care!! Then there is this thing... I think im thinking it too much... but it was odd... (freaky odd) I wont write it, but "miss you"??? huh??? I hope it is a joke, cause if it aint... I realy dont know what to do... I mean, I do too, in a very friendly way, like I miss ticho, or any other gal. I must be thinking it too much... I better ask and get rid of the problem or make it 100 times bigger!!!. Couldnt talk with NICO... he wasnt home, pitty! But I called... I kept my promise! Well, im gonna go study a lil to get my mind of boys... Im going crazy here!!! Loads of love! Bye bye!!! Per!
Why don't you do somethin'?? :: 11:47 AM This is me, the two kids that were at the match and Maju. In this one we were suppoused to look serious, Lucy couldnt help herself, im about to burst... only maju succeded!!! Well, many ppl here... a whole bunch from the univ!!! This pic looks great! dont you think??? Now the videos were hilarious!!! soooooo funny! Anyway, being this posted Im gonna go hit my bed... I wanted to wish Nico Happy b-day at 00:00 but I dont think I should call at that hour, he might be sleeping, though...who sleeps at that hour the day before your b-day!!! Well, g2g... bye!!!!!!!!!! Good night! Per!
Why don't you do somethin'?? :: 11:32 PM I look so weird, specially the pic I had to rotate in order to make it look like a mirror. Anyway... im out for today!... Its so bloody hot today!!! Bye bye! Per!
I just finished making a wallpaper for my computer... spent some time in photoshop, I simply LOVE that programme.
Here it is... im sure this will resize the pic... anyway!
Why don't you do somethin'?? :: 2:04 PM
Why don't you do somethin'?? :: 1:17 AM
Im so very sleepy... its incredible... my eyes are closing even thought im trying my best to keep them open. Yesterday I was distoroyed, it was like 23:30 and I decidede I was going to bed cause I couldnt keep my eyes open... but first I had to check my email. WHY??!!
I enter, read my horoscope... a big bag of crap... it never makes any sense... today's is even more far from true... it said something like my quiet self was finally coming off and now I would start talking with ppl and maybe even trust someone with a secret??!!... me quiet? me keeping a secret??!! MY GOSH!!!... its ike never... it also said I would start gossiping... I only do that like... 24/7!!!.
Anyway... i was about to erase my bulk mail when I said, why not take a look, maybe my newsletter from AXN or SONY was there telling me sth about when the heck is LOST starting again (here where I live the second season hasnt started yet!!!) so I opened it and to my surprise i had a mail with this subject "Rolling Stones tickets for Argentina on sale" and it was a email from their official page so I went totally nutz! I ran downstairs to tell my dad... and then we freaked. We looked in ticketek and they were starting the sale too... and between page and page and emails and some cursing... it was 1:30... imagine my state!.
Today I woke up at 7... im fisicaly devastated... my brain is dead and my eyes look horrible... Im needing make up today!!!.
Anyway.. we still havent found a way to buy the tickets... hope I get to go... I so wanna see them live!!, I grew up with them, mick is like my second father figure!!! My gosh he is in our living room!!! Anyway... im gonna go eat sth... its all that seems to keep me from falling asleep.
Bye bye!
Per!
PS: So lil for GoF... cant wait!!!!!
Why don't you do somethin'?? :: 1:15 PM
Why don't you do somethin'?? :: 12:19 AM
YESSSSSSSSSSSSSS, I found this song Ive been looking ever since I saw the trailer of "Closer". Remember that film?? Julia Roberts, Clive Owen, Jude Law and .... cant remember the name of the other girl... the one from star wars... natalie portman!!!!!!!! Ok... g2g study I will carry this on later tonight!.
Aby!
Thats what I wrote at noon... now... I can write again. Its around eleven, my partial exam already passed and im in a much more relaxed mood.
What happened today??? I had the most interesting chat with ticho and I found out sth that I had been willing to know if it was.... "true" a long time ago. Think whatever you want!! Im in peace with my mind.
What else... we studied... actually we did!!! We then went to the univ and on the trip, we went by car, on the radio they kept passing the songs we love!!! And it was hilarous cause the last song we liked ended when ticho turned off the car.
We had class, and I didnt understand what the heck they were talking about. Then we had a lot of free time and we chatted with Juan, santi and john. We also talked with the professor in charge and we couldnt reach a price to pay for the exam... IM JOKING OF COURSE!!!!!!!!
Then I started signing arms... I signed Juan's, Santi's, Ticho's, Sofi's, Bruno's, Leo's, Ana's, Blondie's, Nacho's... and I think no one else...
Oh! Im hooked up on this candy's... so delicious.... my belly wont be happy with that.
Finally came the partial exam and I did pretty good considering I had studied almost nothing!!!!! I missed one of the pictures and thats all... pretty good!!!.
Ticho took me home, had a delicious dinner, talked with maru and couldnt end the day as I wanted... hey you cant always get what you want... Gosh do I know that!!!.
Remember my fave quote right???
And also... THAT quote...
Why don't you do somethin'?? :: 11:27 PM
Espera un poquito mas... eso me dije todos los dias desde que me dijiste que algo podia pasar. Y espere, no a que me preguntaras algo, sino a que aunque sea empezara a pasar algo... algo mas que ser esa con la que estas de vez en cuando.
Y por un tiempo fue lindo eso..., pero el tiempo paso y nada cambio. Tantas veces me dijiste de hacer algo, y yo espere cada una de esas veces a que me llamaras... nunca me llamaste, ni para avisarme que no. Yo te llame cada vez para enterarme que estaba esperando en vano. Y no sabes como duele el saber que mientras yo esperaba vos ni te acordabas de mi.
Y no dije nada, no proteste, me hice la boluda solo para no perderte, y creo que no te perdi pero tampoco gane nada. Y segui esperando, trate de averiguar algo y vos solo me decias cosas lindas que me encanto escuchar, pero que despues no pasaron.
No sabes lo que cambie desde que te conoci, hice cosas que nunca hubiera hecho, arrastrarme fue la peor y es la que me hace sentir mal, porque ni siquiera tuvo efecto. YO, siento que no tengo efecto en vos, y cuando lo tengo es nagativo. Siento que te molesto y que vos sos demasiado educado como para decirmelo.
Yo era asi hace unos años, en 1999, antes de conocer a Gabriel. Era re "buena". No decia nada, siempre me callaba con tal de que los demas estuvieran felices, despues de todos los lios con Gabriel, yo cambie salado. Hay gente q dice que laura era antes y despues aparecio aby, mas alocada, directa, divertida y con mucho mas caracter. Me prometi no dejarme llevar otra vez por los sentimientos y cuidarme, siempre cuidarme de los demas.
Me enamore de vos y me olvide de eso. No me cuide y no digo que me hayas querido lastimar, pero estoy lastimada.
Si no estabas seguro, si no querias nada, si no me tenias aprecio... porque no me dijiste? No sabes todo lo que me ahorrabas! Pero cada vez que te abri la puerta para que te fueras, te quedaste y eso me hace pensar que capaz que si sentias algo por mi, algo mas que amistad. Pero al mismo tiempo, ni los amigos se hacen esperar asi.
Esto va a sonar de lo mas estupido, pero si yo le digo a maru de hacer algo y despues no puedo o no quiero, la llamo y le aviso. Es tan simple y nadie se siente mal, aunque yo no se si te sentis mal o no, porque nunca me decis nada. Yo ya no se que pensar... el finde pasado me armaron salado quilombo y como una reina me disculpe, me senti horrible y fui y lo arregle como pude tratando que todos quedaran contentos. Y este, y disculpa que lo diga asi... pero me dejaste re tirada, y ni te enteraste.
Vos cada vez que me decis de hacer algo me re ilusionas y despues cuando ni me llamas para cancelar te juro que me dejas hecha trizas. Y como arrastrada que soy me callo, no digo nada y lo dejo pasar. A ninguno de tus amigos le harias eso y no creo que ninguno de ellos te lo haga a vos... pensa como te sentirias si alguno te lo hiciera... bueno ahi tenes una idea de lo que siento yo.
Mira que no te estoy recriminando nada, aunque podria no lo voy a hacer, porque te quiero y no me gustaria que esta fueran las ultimas palabras entre nosotros. Si vos decidis que van a ser, no puedo hacer nada... si no tuve tu atencion y cariño antes, esto no va a cambiar nada, es mas solo puede empeorarlo.
La unica duda que me queda es porque duro tanto todo esto. Yo lo mantuve, acepto mi cuota, pero vos tambien lo mantiviste y me gustaria saber con que objetivo... Me tenias (y tenes) en la palma de la mano, podias hacer lo que querias, y no te aprovehaste... eso me lleva a pensar que sos re buena persona, que un poco me querias, que no era solo una "minita" para vos... y despues pasan estas cosas que no les encuentro explicacion. No tiene coherencia una forma de actuar con la otra, o quizas a mi me faltan piezas del puzzle para poder entender cual es realmente la situacion.
Hice todo lo que se me ocurrio para ganarme tu afecto, siento que no pude, que lo que logre fue pasajero, que solo duraba algunas noches. Aca dejo la "lucha", tiro la toalla... como quieran decir, no te voy a buscar mas porque no puedo encontrate. Se ve que si, que somos muy diferentes, pense que no iba a importar, que iba a ser parte del encanto... nuevamente me equivoque!... tambien es costumbre en mi.
Te amo..., ya se que es poco tiempo, que casi no te conosco... pero si alguna vez lo sentiste por alguien sabes que ni el tiempo ni el lugar importan... pasa, y lo sentis, y lo sabes y estas seguro. Y yo se que a vos te amo. Lo dejo todo en tus manos. Podes enojarte, podes agrandarte, alegrarte... no se, reacciona como mas te agrade. Hoy cuando te vea en la facu me dare cuenta de que camino vas a tomar....si no me saludas, supondre que te enojaste y que de ahora en adelante nos ignoraremos como si fueramos perfectos extraños. Si me saludas... lo tomo como que seremos amigos y esto sera un lindo recuerdo que voy aguardar mientras trato de deshacerme de estos sentimientos que tantos problemas causaron.
Que momento... si se te ocurre manera de ahorrarme los nervios te lo agradezco. Espero que no te enojes... pasaste a ser terrible parte de mi rutina, de mi vida y sacarte de un dia para otro va a estar dificil.
Decirte que te quiero mucho es redundante, lo sabes hace siglos. Aunque de algunas cosas me pueda llegar a arrepentir, no cambiaria nada de lo que paso... porque hubo cosas re lindas que me voy a guardar para siempre. Y lo haria todo de vuelta... si vos estuvieras dispuesto a empezar otra vez... como si recien nos conoceramos. Aunque estaria complicado dado q algo ya nos conocemos...
Te dejo un beso enorme... el que nunca me anim a robarte... aunque por respeto y miedo a tu reaccion me frene varias veces.
Aunque aca deje de insistir, seguis siendo dueño y señor de mi corazon (me mata sonar tan cursi!!!,pero cuando es verdad es verdad)
Aby!
PD: tuve que sacar todos los tildes porque la pagina no los lee y pone letras extrañas.
Why don't you do somethin'?? :: 2:57 AM
It is not a poem it does not always rime, but it came to me as I returned home from the cinema with TICHO. We saw "The Skeleton Key" And it was great!!!. I knew Id like that movie!!!. Well, nothing more to say... OH!
Uruguay won... just to say it.
OH! Im changing my mind... remember my fave quote "I either get what I want or I change my mind" Well, I can clearly see that I wont get what I want... too many obstacles in the path. Im not running away from difficulties, Im more that eager to sort them out and enjoy the rest of the trip, but without a trip for sure... maybe the obstacles are not worth sorting out. Im saying this cause I need a change in my life right now... You all know I hate static, I hate tradition and rutine... and right now im in the middle of one thats not healthy to me. I need a change and if it doent come, Im gonna go seek it, I wont wait for it to show up!!!
Im going back to my roots, aby is back and better than ever... watch out!
Why don't you do somethin'?? :: 2:30 AM
After spending the whole day under the sun... thing that helped a lot given the fact I needed some contact with my "natural" self, I find myself again here sitting in my fave chair in the whole house thinking about my day.
And here sitting in the dark (im feeling way too lazy to stand up and turn on the lights) I had a moment of peace to look inside of me, to see myself from the outside... and after all the exitement of the day is gone, and you start to focus in your inner self I find myself against this weird feeling I thought to be gone, but no, it is still here. (Cant find a way to make that sentence work!!)
Like a month ago it started. Its like a thin fabric thats covering everything so Im never really aware of it, yet is is still there. Ive found myself in the most funny situations yet not enjoyng myself like I would, and then when things turned bad, I overreact, I feel them much more, and maybe its not that bigger deal. For example Im very reactive, in a second I can go from fine to "Im gonna kill you" angry!.
I thought it could be hormones, though my periods never affect me that way, but hey... its been more than a month, my period came and left and the feeling is still there. Whats bothering me, and more than bothering I'd say scaring me, is that this seems like this feelings I tend to have and then they usually turn out to be right... I had it the night I ended up hooking up with Federico.... Also the first night with Tin and then that lovely night when Tin and the other Federico came together... I always have a feeling... the fisrt time I had this Deja vu of me calling maru to tell her about fede, then the next one I knew when ana called that I had to go cause sth great was going to happen, and I knew it would be him when they mentioned his name. And then the night they both got together I remeber saying to a friends sister... "it is going to happen, I can feel it... and I dont know what I'll do if it happens!!!" and it happened.
But this aint a good feeling like those!!! Im like nervous, and expectant... in not even exited about GoF!!! Cause Im wasting my whole attention on this. You know what I found myself doing today amd I almost kicked myself for doing so... ignoring him! I didnt want to say hi, I was carried outside by a gal, but I didnt want to pass next to him!!! THATS SO NOT ME!!! Im weird!! Imagine if I find myself weird to the eye of a stragner I must be a wacko!!! It drives me crazy not to know whats happening to me. I need to numb my thoughts with music!!! Im thinking way too much maybe.. I dunno!!!
I wanted to write this just in case sth happens so then I could have proof of my excellent sixth sense!!! Im gonna go to bed... I wanted to write a lil more but Im not inspired, Alessandra will have to wait.
Yesterday's song was "From the Inside" from Linkin Park
Today's song is my fave song right now and it is "Autobiography" From Ashlee Simpson. It is MY song, cause its written about me!
Why don't you do somethin'?? :: 11:50 PM
Ok... today I made this two thingys in photoshop... I was so freaked by this new tools I found... look at the pic of the three of us... it looks amazing!!!
Why don't you do somethin'?? :: 12:46 AM No one can deny that she is gorgeous and cute!. She is the best!!! Cant believe I had forgotten her just like that!!!. I also cant believe I never drew her eyes... she has a beautiful expresion in her eyes, always so natural... lil makeup... pitty i dont have any pics of her outside the computer! Well, write again later!!! Bye! Per!
Look who I ran into today when I was looking for news about my blond lady... RACHEL!!!! here are some blends to remind me of her! I have some lovely new pics of her that will make beautiful blends... Im gonna work with photoshop this weekend!!!!
Why don't you do somethin'?? :: 4:07 PM
Im here, sitting at my computer thinking about some things I've forgotten. I have here by my side, a picture of my 3rd birthday. In this picture Im with my father parents, my grandparents, both of them dead now for several years. My grandfather died when I was 4 years old, I never even noticed the loss, but my grandmother died when I was 8, and that I did notice, a lot in fact.
I was very attached to her, mostly cause I was the first girl in her family, and everyone took too much interest in me... I was maybe a lil spoiled by her and that can easyly win the affection of a child. But with the years Ive been finding myslf thinking about all the things she missed, but most of all all the things I missed.
Everyone who knew my grandmother says Im the exact replica of her, from my laugh and smile to the shape of my body, everything! Its something Im more than used to hear and sth im very proud of. Looks like I took most of my X from my dad and not from my mother.
Givin it a genetic (cant help it...ITS ME!!!) point of view.... girls are XX (an X from the mother and one from the father) while males are XY (the X from the mother and the Y from the father). My father also looks quite like my gandmother (if you look beyond the fact that one is a male and another a female!!) The eyes, the expresions... My dad gave me his X, which came straight from his mother... So if she had a very dominant genome, and we can say she did given the fact that some of her fenotype can be seen in my dad, even over the Y of my grandfather.... its not a surprise I look like her. Also on favour of this theory is the fact that my brother is very much alike my mother and her mother. If you look at him, he has the Y from my father, that we already knew it was recesive and now the X from my mom, which is dominant, very dominant (my mother and her mother are like two versions in diferent ages of the same person).
But in girls, one of the "X"s is inhibited, in me, the inhibited X is clearly my moms... and that is why I look too much like my grandmother.
After this scientific explanation (blame my brother for it, he made me explain genetics to him yesterday!!!) I cant help to look at this pic I have with her and see the same smile, the same look, the same cheeks... And now I realize I cant find an image in my head of her. I remeber things and places we went, but I cant find a moving image of her in my mind!. All I have are pictures Ive seen or moments when I pay more attention to small details and I dont record the big picture, with her.
I guess Im a lil sensitive lately... hormones?? (cant help to find the scientific explanation of everything...I have a scientific mind, though sometimes I just LOVE to get unattached to it and fly away)
Im gonna go study kidnys!!! yei!!!! B-Bye!!!
Per!
Why don't you do somethin'?? :: 10:33 AM We either ate a lot..., or we are in deep trouble!! Girls get bored... girls take pics...wearing sunglasses at night... They also do strange poses... And here they are all... my blondie is missing also pinky... but they were here!!! Looka t my face in the back!!! We had a great time, then the weekedn went by with some disturbance I rather not talk about. I just need to be more careful with what I write and about who... Ok... now Im gonna grab myself sth to eat cause im starving! Bye bye! Per!
Weekend was good. On Saturday came the gals we had such a blast!!! So much fun and so much to eat!!!. We took some very funny pics... Im gonna post some for you to see.
What was left after hours of eating...
Why don't you do somethin'?? :: 1:33 PM
Hello hello... Im soooooo tired!!!!. my eyes are open cause im forcing them to stay that way..., if it was up to them they'd be so close!!!. To complete the picture I cought a cold and the day outside isnt helping since it is all cloudy and rainy and you know... depressing!. Thank god he left, my face isnt "lookable" today... I need some make up to cheer myself up!
I listened to my beautiful lady today (if you are wondering who you didnt pay much attention to the layout of this page) "OIDIA"... and I took out some lines I liked... here they go:
"Cant you see Im a fool, in so many ways..."
"I cant go on, as long as I believe..., Cant let go, when I keep wondering if..."
"When your eyes say it, thats when I know that its true, I feel it"
"Just the thought of being close to you...
its incomparable...
Should I be happy with the life I live?
and the things I do...
seems like I have it all...
Cant make you, make you love me baby!!
Its my life, what can I do?
I cant make you love me!
Im just a girl with a crush on you!!!!!"
Ok, what else can I say... I wrote the questions for my new project with Barbie... "Baraby Robor" Im so exited... it is going to be hilarous!!!
What else? Tomorrow tea party!!! Or eating party!!! or "talk evil about other ppl and eat a lot of sweet full of fat things" party!!! YEI!!!!
Im kinda happy... Im not sad, and im not like fantastic, im happy... I think things will work out in the end... Im gonna be patient. "skeleton key" is playing... you know what that means!!! Bye!
Per! <-- better mood, but feeling sick...
Why don't you do somethin'?? :: 3:01 PM
ok... I have a talent, and this is to screw up things, it natural in me... I dont have to make an effor or anything... it simply comes out!
Not gonna explain, I very well know... long night and Joaquin Sabina haunted me all night long!!! Its true... everywhere I went... there he was... singing... F*ck him!!!
Bye!
Per! <-- Im not in my best mood!
Why don't you do somethin'?? :: 12:05 PM